I'm having a hard time of it !!! During the last year or so with my training, I have been using body strength in my taijutsu to make up for suck-*** body dynamic and movement/kukan. As a nidan in BBT/N, i would like to at least look like I'm not trying to embarass myself when called upon to demo. Also, having B/GJJ in my backgroung dosen't sem to help the fact that lately I've been moving like a pregnant yak. On crack.
My Shidoshi(s) tell me to "keep training" and "ride it out", but (with due love/respect to them), I'm starting to get real antsy, as warriors often operate in less-than-ideal situations (i.e. when injured, when tired, inclimate weather, when being pursued, having to take out an attacker, etc.).
As rank means almost nothing to me, I am not ashamed to say that there are times when I feel as though I don't know what the hell I'm doing, and that I need help. Any (serious) advise would be appreciated.