it's a tough job to ignore the "bad / stupid / political / ( insert your value here ) talk " but i'll have a try...
Kichigai-no-Okami ; the situation sounds very familiar... and i guess it happens to all buyu at some time...
Sometimes even the best things can 'look' so awfully worse...
I had that feel for a long time when i got to Japan for the 2nd time.
Thinking that training would be a bit easier and more accesable was a very stupid thing to do as it frustrated me more as the days of training went by...
But i kept going and try to get at least the sessions with the teachers that i felt best with.
About 3 weeks later things went a bit better ; i was still sucking like hell ( still do...
) but in some way it just didn't feel 'only bad' ...
It's hard to explain and i guess there were more things involved but what counted the most for me was the fact that i kept training , even when frustrations got really high...
So i guess that's a thing that is indeed tough ( it's like the most sour lemon ever... ) but it has to be...
Gambatte ; just keep going , how mad you get , how bad you feel , how helpless it seems...
There will always be a moment in the future when you'll look back at the past when you can say to yourself ; "it was worth the tough travel here... "
Gambatte kudasai!