Remember to match uke's speed. So uke needs to go slow initially. Often I see uke move slow and tori moves at twice the speed. Or often uke starts out too fast for tori. Both uke and tori need to move at the *same* speed. And... Uke sets the speed.
No, the truth shows itself when people try to emulate Hatsumi prematurely.
i would think, having problems with motivation is normal at some point..
i also try to always find new ways to improve myself as well as understand the world around me better.
i also think that it is a good thing that you notice it and that you openly address the issue of selfimprovement.
From another perspective, you seem troubled, as though you have not only failed some kind of mission, but you are questioning yourself, your abilities or even your martial art if not all ma.
i am certain that deep down you will want to agree with me here; martial arts works!...when you do the techniques just right- at the right angle, most importantly at the right time and in the correct spirit, they work.
even if you succeed in a technique perfectly, but you do it unfairly or hastily out of very negative emotions, then you still wont feel really great about later. if you try your best to be fair-to not injure your uke(after yourself or equally)- then, even if you mess up something you neednt feel that bad.
that is what training is for.
all i can think of now is the line from spiderman, with great power comes great responsibility.
just concentrate on not hurting yourself without being freaked out, and then try to control whatever you are trying to achieve with your uke. control your heart- and be fair. if you try to be fair, i garantee people will start to respect you more and more....and as your skill increases, some of that respect may turn to fear- but that is not the goal. if so, it shows that your yourself have fears that you are choosing to spread in the dojo rather than eliminate on the streets.
my tip is be good to everyone and you might realize how much there is out there to learn that will make you better and stronger too.
whatever the case, for the sake of higher strategy, i also had to learn how to turn myself off, so to speak- just observe the training and add my twocents. eventually however, when i know just the right thing to go after, i will switch myself back on. sounds kinda schizo i know..
j
