Yeah. Different people fear different things. I was more afraid of getting hit before I got hit some .... one time I remember seeing a flash and then trying to get up off the floor and thinking "that wasn't so bad".I'm glad that you agree it's fear; especially if didn't even spar hard when you were young. And by sparring hard, I mean full power to the head & body.
On the other hand, I really would not want to be in that position today. From what we know about the long term effects of brain injury, it's a risk I shouldn't take.
Now you want to talk FEAR ...irrational, mind-numbing fear? Think about this: