You don't, you are also an expert martial artist with a lifetime of experience.
Not everybody in an art needs to compete, but there better be some regular feedback into the system telling it how other people are fighting, particularly when many participants of that art haven't been in regular street fights. Participating in the larger marketplace of ideas forces an intellectual honesty about the art, isolating the practice of the art away from others is a great path to delusion and irrelevance.
Well ok, so Iāve been training for a few years and I guess that background gives me some insight that not everyone will have. But Iāve never trained in a school that put a heavy emphasis on sparring or competition. We did some, but it just wasnāt the big thing. I would say the one exception would be the roda in capoeira, we did pretty much every single training session. As I know you are aware, that would be the sparring equivalent within a capoeira context, but is definitely different from the competitive sparring found in most schools and competitions. I personally enjoyed the playfulness that can be found in the roda much much more than the competitive sparring format that is more typical in other formats.
But at any rate, I donāt think my own insights are particularly difficult to make and I think most thoughtful people with some baseline of experience could make similar observations that donāt need to come down to seeing a win/loss record. The process itself in the training, is revealing.
As to your comment about needing feedback from outside and intellectual honesty vs. delusion in training. I understand your point and what you suggest can be a way to get that. Lots of people seem to enjoy competition and it certainly can be useful. I donāt argue against that.
I do argue against the notion that everyone needs to be doing that, or there somehow needs to be a direct link to people who are doing it or else the training is essentially fraudulent and/or delusional. If you wish to be a successful competitor then you need to train for that and you need to do that. If you have no interest in being a competitor and you are looking for an enjoyable form of exercise and camaraderie in training a method that will give you a distinct and effective advantage in the unlikely event that you will need to defend yourself on the street one day, then you do not need to train like a competitor and you do not need to compete. I fully understand that a competitive MMA fellow is likely training a lot harder than me, is more fit than I am, and is likely 25 years younger than me. If that is the guy I end up fighting, then I will most likely lose. That is ok with me, because that is a very unlikely scenario anyways. That is unlikely to be the fellow against whom I might need to defend myself one day. So I donāt waste my time and energy on it. I donāt worry about how others are training or what they are doing or how they are fighting. Honestly, I donāt care. Really and truly.
there is a real difference between being a successful competitor and being able to successfully defend oneself in what would be a likely scenario on the street. The two CAN go hand-in-hand, but absolutely do not have to. You do not need to be the former, in order to be the latter.