@lklawson,
I didn't mean to get on anyone's bad side or anything. You take my original post as boasting when I wasn't boasting. I was just trying to tell what I've been reading and learning.
"I've gotten really good from practicing, reading, and learning key techniques (some I've thought of)
very well to the point it's natural."
I wasn't saying I could beat people or that I'm the "best" or anything. I was just saying from my experience when I first started to now that I'm natural with the select techniques I wanted to learn in my way. I can't explain it, but I don't have to think or concentrate on doing things anymore like I was when I started. My body naturally does it. If I want to do certain kick, I kick with full power and control (when I started my leg was terrible and I couldn't tell you the difference between a back roadhouse kick and straight back-kick). When I punch, I no longer hesistate or think about form, it just happens with hip action (I still don't get the feet power stuff, but whatever). If I need to jump or do crazy stuff in the air, I just do it and land back in the stance I wanted to land in. I might not have a pro trainer like you or have a fancy place to train, but at least it's something I'm passionate about doing.
Self-training to me is fun because it's something I want to do. I'm not forced to do it and if I didn't want to do it I would have quit by now. Also, I like self-training because I can learn what I want without having to go through 2 week.. 3 week drills. Martial arts to me is not about killing (which is why my dream alerted me), not about being the bad *** on the block, or anything boasting. It to me is about finding self, conditioning your body for better health, and giving you confidence to stand in certain situations you would crumble in.
Yea, it might be better to have someone skilled watching me, but sometimes the feel of a technique is enough to know when you are doing it right. Especially when you do it and don't question it. By the way, I was punching and kicking trees to build my knuckles (I know about knuckle push-ups, and the other stuff) and also work on taking and handling pain.