Ah. It sounds to me like you have received poor instruction in kata.
I don't hold that against you, it's not your fault. It is the fault of your instructor. There is a lot of that about, actually, so your situation is not remarkable.
This may require a splinter thread, but if you are actually honestly interested in learning what kata really is, and how to approach kata as a viable training tool, there are some very knowledgeable folks here who can have that discussion.
It's been done a number of times already.
However, if you are not honestly interested in learning something, and intend to clutch desperately at your uneducated beliefs, then don't bother.