You make some great points that I haven’t really considered. I like them, and agree for the most part.
But there’s a fundamental difference between chasing rank and chasing improvement IMO. During my 18-24 year old stint in karate, I chased rank. It was about learning my material for the current rank, and doing it to a “good enough” standard to be promoted so I can learn the next group of cool stuff. Repeat until black belt. I was quite good, and I exceeded the my teacher’s minimum standards. It certainly wasn’t a belt mill, and I genuinely earned each promotion.
I see what you mean, but for me when Im striving for rank I want to do not just well enough to meet the standards minimally I want to blow them out of the water. Achieving rank is all about meeting certain standards for certain levels that are set by an instructor that you've put your time and trust into. And if Im pursuing rank, while I obviously do want to meet such standards I want to go well beyond them if possible and be the best I can be. And 1st Dan, the first rank represented with a black belt is by no means the end. There's 2nd Dan, 3rd Dan, ect. Some people want to pursue higher Dan ranks. Some people don't care about further rank advancement after making 1st Dan. I've known people who don't care to advance past 3rd Kyu which is represented with a brown belt and then there are those who don't care about rank at all. Whatever rank somebody wants to earn or whether or not a student cares about earning rank is a choice and the way I see it, there is nothing wrong with making whatever choice you want in regards to what rank you want to earn or whether or not you want to earn rank as long as you don't try pushing your choice on others.
During my 38-present (41) stint in a very close syllabus-wise school, I’m chasing improvement. I’m not looking to learn the next grade’s “cool stuff.”
Well as far as the next grade's cool stuff, from my experience about 90 percent of what you will use in the martial arts you learn during your first few belts. To this day I would say most of the techniques that I emphasize the most and train in the most are techniques I learned as a white belt. Even the more complex combinations and forms are often just made up of basics that you learn as a beginner. After that, its all a matter of improving what you learned when you first started out. Both a beginner with just a week of training and an experienced practitioner with many years of training are going to know the reverse punch, but the more experienced practitioner will have honed it to a much greater degree of skill and effectiveness. So most of the cool stuff you learn as a beginner, than its just a matter of making it better.
My goal isn’t a black belt around my waist.
Well the physical black belt is not the actual rank, its a symbol of the rank. If your goal is to have the physical belt around your waist you can simply buy one as people on this forum have suggested. Some of the people have provided links to sources where you can buy belts although such links wouldn't be necessary, all you have to do is google martial arts supplies and find a site that sells belts where you can buy a black belt and put it on.
If your goal is to earn the rank of 1st Dan that's a different story. Earning 1st Dan means meeting standards that are set by an instructor, not wearing a belt that symbolizes that you've met those standards.
Whatever I’m doing, I want to do it better than I think I can. Wowing onlookers, classmates and my teacher is all fine and good, but it doesn’t do anything for me anymore. I’m more critical of myself than anyone else is of me; they see my flaws, but I feel them. Quite often they’re easier to feel than to see. Granted, they see flaws that I don’t see or feel, so I get it from both sides.
I agree in always trying to do stuff better. I also agree in doing stuff not to impress others but to give myself confidence and feel good about myself.
I guess chasing rank is a “good enough” mentality, whereas chasing improvement is a perfectionist mentality. It was and is for me, anyway.
You're not going to acquire rank without chasing improvement provided you're not training at a belt mill. But, like I said before I want to go above and beyond the requirements for rank not just squeak by.
Here’s a better way to put it: my first go round, I learned taikyoku 1-3 kata as a white belt. My mentality was do it well enough so I can learn Pinan 1 kata, as that looked cool. When I went back this time, I wanted to perfect taikyoku 1-3 before I started working on Pinan 1. All I know for certain is at 41 I’m so much better than I was at 21. I may not be as flexible and capable of jumping around as I was, but I’m better in every single other way. I’m sharper, faster, stronger, and can take a hit far better.
Oh yeah, I don’t recover like I did in my 20s either.
I want to perfect the katas I know now and make them the best possible. When Im ready, my instructor will teach me more. Today he just taught me some new sai techniques.
And Im your age and Im in the best shape ever.