I missed this whole story somehow...
I'm really glad your muscle injuries seem to be on the road to recovery. Several years ago, when I had a bad weightlifting accident, with full-thickness muscle tears in my shoulder and a fractured scapula, it took me something like eight months, with six months of that doing serious physiotherapy, to get back to normal, and even then it was dicey for a few months more. These soft tissue injuries are the pits, no question—most bone fractures are a piece of cake by comparison. What I find surpising is that the very first doctor you saw didn't order an MRI scan. That would have shown the tear clearly and in detail. It shouldn't be something that people have to
guess about, for heaven's sake! Just be careful and cautious getting back into training, eh?
As for the losses in your family... very, very sorry to hear about that. We get to a certain age and stage and this starts happening... it's inevitable but that doesn't make it any easier. Part of life, an important part, is denial of mortality—we couldn't get through on a daily basis if we thought about it much. Makes it that much harder, though, when we do have to confront it... we have to swallow it and carry on, but that's not much comfort, I know. Hope things are going better now for you...