I am sorry that people who post on these forums made you question what you learned. I can assure you, there is no need to worry. These arguements have all been refuted.
If you are talking about the HMAF bulletin, let me know. I can try to scan it in as a jpg and try to post it. If not I would be willing to send a copy of a picture in an e-mail to you. Just let me know what you are looking for.
I have the HMAF front cover scanned but I am unable to post it as an attachment or a file image. I may post it on my website to give it a URL to post a link to.