Decided..... not to compete. Have been sick with a bad infection and it's going to be a crazy busy week, so it would be pushing it.
And I am strangely... at peace with it. I'm going to keep my focus on finding a dojo when all settles down these next two weeks and I recover okay. That's really my priority, so I'm okay with things. I'm a bit over feeling sorry for myself and getting depressed when I miss out on things due to health. When I'm ready I'm ready. But once I'm better I'm jumping into training!
I'll go up and watch the Nationals in December and do much observing and notetaking
. There's always next year to compete!