I have asked this question earlier but didnt get the answers i expected.
Here is a third (more accurate) attempt.
Advice? ... Where goes the buddhahood in this?
I am basically wondering about the motivation behind ones actions. -
I don't understand what i should have as an aim to be able to keep going, with for instance MA practise.
As, these requirements change when i am aiming for a change (in me). But when that change in me has occured, then the goal too would have changed, and thus not allowing me to change with the change if i am not fast enough.
How can this be avoided?
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When that i mentioned above is set lets say, and i progress in my MA practise. ... When i have progressed in my MA = things become eaiser.
When things get easy, i get slower, and therefore i cannot fulfull what i whish to accomplish in the first place.
What has happened now is that i am more tiered of that circle of course, and I may be called lazy. - I had a reason to manage this before (escaped), but now i cannot because i have become more adult and smarter ... kind of smarter . And that prevents me from accepting simple things as i require more complicated answers to my questions.
(Oh, and I cannot settle if my mind has not settled. ((And by that i do(don't do) what is evil). There is not a way out of this))
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Here is a third (more accurate) attempt.
Advice? ... Where goes the buddhahood in this?
I am basically wondering about the motivation behind ones actions. -
I don't understand what i should have as an aim to be able to keep going, with for instance MA practise.
As, these requirements change when i am aiming for a change (in me). But when that change in me has occured, then the goal too would have changed, and thus not allowing me to change with the change if i am not fast enough.
How can this be avoided?
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When that i mentioned above is set lets say, and i progress in my MA practise. ... When i have progressed in my MA = things become eaiser.
When things get easy, i get slower, and therefore i cannot fulfull what i whish to accomplish in the first place.
What has happened now is that i am more tiered of that circle of course, and I may be called lazy. - I had a reason to manage this before (escaped), but now i cannot because i have become more adult and smarter ... kind of smarter . And that prevents me from accepting simple things as i require more complicated answers to my questions.
(Oh, and I cannot settle if my mind has not settled. ((And by that i do(don't do) what is evil). There is not a way out of this))
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