None of which is to say that God is with-holding this book from you.
Well, now you reminded me of something. When I was a strapping lad (and dinosaurs were not yet invented), I worked for a local PD in Colorado, and I was fresh out of the USMC, and every year on vacation, I jumped in my Toyota pickup truck and headed into the mountains in search of vacation. Two weeks, me and my truck and my sleeping bag, no destination other than
'out there somewhere.'
One year, my path took me down through the western slope of Colorado and towards the Four Corners area. I saw signs for Mesa Verde and decided to go see it. I hadn't seen it since I was a kid with my family.
Well, as I got closer, it started to rain. As I got closer yet, it started to hail. As I drove up to the gate, it started to snow. Hard. And this was late July. The park was closed, due to weather. I was not allowed in.
The next year, I decided ahead of time that if I could go, I would go. So even though I had 'no destination', I kind of purposefully ambled that direction, and as I got closer, the weather stayed nice. Got to the park - it was closed do to fire. I could not even see the smoke from the so-called fire, but the park was closed. Curses, foiled again.
The third year, I was not only vacationing, I was doing this 'vision quest' thing. Very spiritual for me at the time. Again I found myself in the Four Corners area, and again I discovered I was near Mesa Verde. However, there was a huge wind storm blowing. As I got closer, it got stronger. Branches were flying off trees. I didn't even go to the park, I knew what I would find.
And I never returned again. I knew I was not being permitted to visit Mesa Verde for some reason. The next time I tried would likely be a plague of locusts, so I just stayed away.
I did get my vision in my vision quest, though. I fell asleep in my sleeping bag in the back of my truck in a farmer's field in Mexican Water, AZ. Woke up with a cow licking my face. Some vision.