The first time I read this thread I wasn't sure if I wanted to share this as it is very personal to me but I think the members here are an extension of my MA family so I have decided to share. One of our federation requirements is a letter to the Master Belt Panel on What it would mean to me to be a Black Belt. So here goes, this was my letter.
WHAT IT MEANS TO ME TO BE A BLACK BELT
What would it mean to me to become a black belt? I have trained for three and a half years towards the goal of “BLACK BELT” and now that it is almost in sight, how could this one simple question seem harder than the training?
Becoming a black belt would mean the respect of my peers but if I deserve it than I should have earned it by now and if I have not then simply putting on the belt wonÂ’t entitle me to it. It would mean instant respect from those who are walking in to the dojang and just meeting me for the first time, but am I deserving of that respect and can I keep it through my actions. It would mean that I had finally reached that goal, but another has already been set. After you reach black belt you donÂ’t just stop you strive towards the next goal.
For me “black belt” has always been more of a spiritual ideal, I grew up watching David Carradine and wanting to be “Grasshopper”. To achieve that level of patience and selflessness the inner peace. This has proven an unattainable goal, and yet the students I teach don’t know that I get angry when I get cut off in traffic or that I sometimes want to use my supervisor as an uki, just as growing up I didn’t know David Carradine would sell out to yellow book. So what does becoming a black belt mean to me? It means showing those kids “if I can do it you can too”, it means going on to learn new things so I can teach it to them. It also means knowing that I can still learn from them and having them as part of my training is a blessing. Becoming a black belt would mean that at least my instructors think I have gotten closer to that unattainable goal, even if I don’t see it myself.
When I first started as a white belt I couldn’t wait to get to black, but now I find that the journey means more to me than the belt, that as long as I can keep training, learning new things teaching others and being a part of the Cheezic Tang Soo Do family my rank doesn’t matter. If I can touch just one child’s life and help them to become stronger and more self confident and if I can instill in them a desire to do the same for others, then maybe I have attained the unattainable. Then, maybe I will truly deserve to be a “BLACK BELT”
Misty Sherman