Gweilo
Master Black Belt
Welcome to the forum, and welcome to the journey, keep that passion you have, train with as many higher ranking students as you can, be like a dry sponge in a bucket of water, absorb as much as possible, feel what you are doing, try to understand everything you are doing, and ask, if you dont understand, and its great that you are prepared to talk about your fears. Fear is a good thing when learning martial arts, as long as you confront them, understand them, and dont just hide them away, because they have a habit of turning up when you least need them too.
Enjoy every minute of your training, you will get good days, and days when you think why do I bother, days when things you know you can do, just aint happening, and days when it just flows, enjoy each one of these days, learn from them, when these things happen, just stop for a couple of seconds, and feel how your body feels, inside and outside, really get to know yourself. If you get stuck with a technique, or movement, take a second and breathe. But most of all, never give up, and enjoy.
Enjoy every minute of your training, you will get good days, and days when you think why do I bother, days when things you know you can do, just aint happening, and days when it just flows, enjoy each one of these days, learn from them, when these things happen, just stop for a couple of seconds, and feel how your body feels, inside and outside, really get to know yourself. If you get stuck with a technique, or movement, take a second and breathe. But most of all, never give up, and enjoy.