Never have I had to experience something so horrible.
As a nurse, I've attended to countless dying patients and their families- which isn't easy, but it is a privelege.
In psych, I've seen a great deal of violence, but mostly self-directed. The two cut throats I attended to were self-inflicted, and both men lived.
My family and friends who died as a result of drugs or booze or suicide wasted their own lives.
We all watched in horror the recent events on 9/11, and the news in Iraq- on tv.
When I think I've seen some tough stuff, I remember I have NEVER seen someone take another person's life. And to do everything in your power knowing it isn't enough, I can't imagine how that feels. It not the same thing, not even close.