Being in the UK, I've never held or used a firearm. Never really wanted to either.
Can anyone explain what the...whats the word i'm looking for...not desire but something like that, to use firearms is to them?
You might be asking what the attraction is? Why the apparent fascination?
I don't know if my answer would be the same as anyone else's answer, but I can try to assist.
I am a child of the 60s. I was born in 1961 and grew up in the cornfields of Central Illinois, right smack-dab in the middle of the USA's 'Midwest'. A largely rural or semi-rural area given over to farming. Hunting and fishing are a historic way of life there. Not everyone hunts and fishes, but an awful lot of people do, as did their fathers, grandfathers, and so on. Women too, I don't mean just men.
Hunting in that part of the country is often a rite of passage. One of the things one does when moving from one part of childhood to another. When I was very young, I accompanied my father as he hunted with friends. Pheasant and rabbit mostly, my dad wasn't big on hunting deer or larger game. I enjoyed spending time with him, and it was what would now be called a
'male bonding experience'. It was very much of a
'this is where we live, this is what we do' kind of thing.
As I got older, I was allowed to carry a slingshot when I went hunting with my dad. Yeah, I wasn't going to catch anything with it, but it made me feel like I was part of the fraternity of hunters. By the time I was 10 years old, I got a .410 single-shot shotgun for Christmas. I was trained heavily in firearm safety by my father, but once he trusted me with the weapon, I kept it in my bedroom closet, along with the shotgun shells.
Keep in mind also that guns were simply part of the culture where I grew up. One quite commonly saw pickup trucks with shotgun racks in the back window and shotguns in those racks. No one thought
"Oh my God, that man has a bunch of guns in his truck, he might kill someone!" It was just as common as seeing someone with a baseball cap touting a particular team. No one had a feeling that guns were dangerous or unsafe or a threat to our communities. That is not to say that they were not dangerous weapons, of course they were! I saw a kid shoot the window out of his dad's truck by accident; thank goodness no one was in it. However, that was pretty darned rare; most parents were very strict about gun safety. Perhaps because guns were so omnipresent, people just accepted that they were around and made provisions for safety? I don't know, I'm just speculating.
Our grade school, which was built in the early 1900s, had a gun range in the basement. At one time, gun safety and marksmanship had been taught as part of the curriculum; by the time I was a student there, it was long abandoned, but it had been there. I sometimes was dropped off by my dad after hunting and I'd hang my shotgun in the cloakroom with my coat, and take it home at lunchtime. No one thought much of it. It wasn't that common, but it wasn't uncommon either. No kid ever decided to play with it or take it down and wave it around; it just never entered our minds to do something like that.
As to my 'fascination', all I can say is that first of all, a well-made firearm is an intrinsically interesting mechanical device. Like a mechanical watch or a bicycle or any other work of mechanical art. That fascinates me, and I am sure it fascinates others. Second, it goes BOOM. Guys like things that go boom.
I will add that in the part of the country where I am from, there is something distinctly 'manly' about being a capable firearms owner. I don't mean to exclude women, but I only have the perspective of my own gender to rely upon. And I am not referring to the chest-pounding 'macho' kind of manliness either. I mean the quiet, powerful, protective nature of what it means to be a man. Masculinity as an archetype, the Father, the Protector, the Guardian, the Provider, the Leader.
Owning a firearm (to me) puts one squarely in the long line of men of our nation who have stood up to protect and defend hearth and home, nation and freedom, from the first days of our Republic until now. It's a joining of the ranks, assuming both the inheritance and the responsibility that this implies. Where I am from, in the time I am from, men stand up; and they do so armed, capable, and ready to sally forth if the need arises. Perhaps a bit romantic, but there you have it. Deep in the psyche, down in the vaults, where men keep all that stuff.