I dont know how to phrase this without it sounding bad. I'll do the best I can, and just keep in mind it sounds yucky but its not.
I started Kenpo in sept of 04, and something with me just clicked. I train as often as I can, 6 days a week usually. I take private lessons twice a week as well. I can't tell you what it is, but everything about it just feels right. It's more than just something to do, the entire atmosphere, being at the studio, it makes me happier than I've ever felt elsewhere. I think it shows. I've been told that sometimes I walk in frowning or quiet, only to be laughing, joking, and smiling left and right only minutes later.
To my point;
Today one of my favorite instructors (this statement in itself is misleading; they are all my favorites) told me that he is going to start another location of our studio in the near-ish future - the earliest it could happen is next year. He told me that he could see me working for him, after all, he couldn't just steal karen (One of our location's female instructors.) He said he wanted to start recruiting people, let them know what was going on. I think he just wanted to put the idea in my head. (Last week when a little boy asked me if I was an instructor when I was helping him out with a kick, the same instructor said "Not yet, anyway". I was a bit surprised at that, but I think its all making sense now.) Sorry, I'm sort of rambling here.
I fell in love with kenpo almost immediately, and have often entertained the thought of becoming an instructor. However, I have been afraid that I will never be good enough. What he said to me made me think that maybe I could be good enough. On the other hand, I'm confused. I mean, I'm only a blue belt. There are things that point to potential in me, but at the end of the day, I am still only a blue belt.
On the one hand I want so badly to believe that this could really happen for me, because nothing else is exciting to me. I mean, I go to college, but I have no major, I have no direction, because the things they say they can teach me just dont interest me.
But on the other hand, I'm just a blue belt. I'm just 17. I'm going for green soon, but the highest I could be a year from now would be a brown belt, 3rd or 2nd. Can you be a good instructor at such a rank?
I don't know what to think about any of this.
Also, my best friend from the studio is a blackbelt who I know wants to be an instructor very badly, but I don't think that's going to happen. His instructor is the one who talked to me today, and if he had mentioned the same thing to my friend I would have heard. I don't want to say anything, but if it happens, he's gonna find out eventually.
Comments on any and all of this would be appreciated so much.
I started Kenpo in sept of 04, and something with me just clicked. I train as often as I can, 6 days a week usually. I take private lessons twice a week as well. I can't tell you what it is, but everything about it just feels right. It's more than just something to do, the entire atmosphere, being at the studio, it makes me happier than I've ever felt elsewhere. I think it shows. I've been told that sometimes I walk in frowning or quiet, only to be laughing, joking, and smiling left and right only minutes later.
To my point;
Today one of my favorite instructors (this statement in itself is misleading; they are all my favorites) told me that he is going to start another location of our studio in the near-ish future - the earliest it could happen is next year. He told me that he could see me working for him, after all, he couldn't just steal karen (One of our location's female instructors.) He said he wanted to start recruiting people, let them know what was going on. I think he just wanted to put the idea in my head. (Last week when a little boy asked me if I was an instructor when I was helping him out with a kick, the same instructor said "Not yet, anyway". I was a bit surprised at that, but I think its all making sense now.) Sorry, I'm sort of rambling here.
I fell in love with kenpo almost immediately, and have often entertained the thought of becoming an instructor. However, I have been afraid that I will never be good enough. What he said to me made me think that maybe I could be good enough. On the other hand, I'm confused. I mean, I'm only a blue belt. There are things that point to potential in me, but at the end of the day, I am still only a blue belt.
On the one hand I want so badly to believe that this could really happen for me, because nothing else is exciting to me. I mean, I go to college, but I have no major, I have no direction, because the things they say they can teach me just dont interest me.
But on the other hand, I'm just a blue belt. I'm just 17. I'm going for green soon, but the highest I could be a year from now would be a brown belt, 3rd or 2nd. Can you be a good instructor at such a rank?
I don't know what to think about any of this.
Also, my best friend from the studio is a blackbelt who I know wants to be an instructor very badly, but I don't think that's going to happen. His instructor is the one who talked to me today, and if he had mentioned the same thing to my friend I would have heard. I don't want to say anything, but if it happens, he's gonna find out eventually.
Comments on any and all of this would be appreciated so much.